Recently my son has been growing so fast. He's attempting to talk so much and be independent. I realized how proud he makes me.
I could never really picture myself as a mother but Elias brings out the best in me. He motivated me to do all the things I've done up to this point. He has made me a person I never knew I could become. The last 14 1/2 months plus the pregnancy that he's been in my life have been amazing. Not exactly easy but the best time of my life.
I can't even begin to explain how much I have learned from him and how much he's changed me. When I look at his little face I smile but when I see him smile I melt inside. It may sound cheesy but that's how it feels. Nothing can compare to love this boy gives me and the love I give him in return. I'm not so sure I want another child because I just wanna love Elias. That might sound bad but it's the truth. He is my Angel.
He might have come sooner than we planned but to be honest, I would do it all over again. I don't care that I got pregnant at 16 or that I became a total outsider to the world, he was all worth it. You really do lose all a majority of your friends and growing up is inevitable but when you have that child you gave birth to, none of it matters. It just pulled out all the people I didn't need in my life.
I understand the lessons my parents tried to teach me and I don't like that I disappointed them but everything happens for a reason. God wanted Joe and I to have a baby as soon as he joined the Marine Corps and i'm starting to figure out why. It's making us a family and pushing us to be the best parents/people we can be.
Elias has given me that extra love and push I need to survive each day. I do not know how I ever lived without him but I know now that he truly has completed my life. He makes me the proudest mother on this Earth when I see him discover something new, learn new words, or just accomplish something I see him working so hard at. I did not know real love until I held him in my arms and looked at his perfect little face.
Thank you Elias for all the amazing things you teach me each day. No one will ever know the strength of my love for you, after all, you're the only one who knows what my heart sounds like from the inside.
Mommy loves you!!
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