VENTTTTT (short one)

I feel like I have nowhere left to turn. I feel trapped; lost; alone. Why? I have NO IDEA. I completely fell behind in school and there is no getting back. I lost my focus, motivation, and will to do anything. Hell the only thing I have been able to do is clean the house and cook. Which is totally weird because I usually can handle school and everything else but the house is a disaster. I'm just speechless... I want to reevaluate my life but then I think what the hell is the point? I am stuck and there's no way out. I would love to just run away and not have to worry about a damn thing. But I can't.

My blood pressure is through the roof and I have a bladder infection. I don't know how either happened and I hope they get better because I have soooo much on my plate to deal with. There is no point in this post. I guess just a vent of nonsense. Anything and everything is pissing me off beyond reasoning!! I wanna scream my head off then start punching. The marital problems are improving but they're still not where they should be. I have all the faith in the world that we will get better.

On a positive side the husband got his bonus and we are planning on buying a 2011 Ford Escape along with a new washer and dryer. It's our first time buying a car so I am so excited. He worked hard and I am so proud of him. If anyone has any advice on how to deal with.... I guess life PLEASE let me know. I am open to anything and everything. Thank you.